Future changes

Our life is about to change again come Spring time. I went into the doctor yesterday to have a 10 week ultrasound done. So far so good, a healthy little baby is growing :) We will be adding to our family around May 12th.
The past two months have been hard. I have felt so blah. I've retreated into my home, venturing out only when I absolutely had to. Even then trying so hard to hide how horrible I felt. My pregnancy with Seth was a breeze, I managed to hide that one until 4 1/2 months! Not this one. Almost from the start I've been so very tired, I've been napping every afternoon for weeks now. The nausea has been manageble but somedays I'd wake up and just not want to manage. I wanted to go back to sleep and stay that way until May. Wake me up when it's time to have the baby! So those closest to me found out pretty quick. Hard to hide it from friends you exercise with or family you hang out with all the time. I get nervous telling people too soon because our very first pregnancy ended in miscarriage. We were so excited when we found out we told everyone as soon as we knew. Really sucked 2 months later to have to turn around and tell everyone we had lost it. So I've been very cautious with every pregnancy after that. I'm still a bit nervous even now but the ultrasound showed things are good for now. Fingers crossed they stay that way.
I talked with my doctor about the nausea and she prescribed an anti-nausea medication. I waited until last night to take it as it's supposed to make you drowsy. I was really hoping it would help me sleep cause I haven't been getting much of that either. Thank goodness for make-up cause my eyes were starting to get that ugly purple thing going on under them. Takes a lot of missed sleep for my eyes to finally show it. Anyway, took the magic pill last night, slept wonderfully, and woke up feeling.....almost normal!! It has been the weirdest feeling as I go about my day. I don't feel sick! YAY!! Why she didn't give this stuff to me when I had Elizabeth I don't know, maybe it wasn't available. I was sick with that girl for almost the entire 9 mos. This stuff is wonderful! I hope it continues to work well. I may actually be able to get things done around the house now. It has been slowly falling apart before my eyes. My family does what they can but let's face it, husbands and children just do not care as much as we do about the clutter. So today it is my hope to tackle the laundry and kitchen. We'll see how it goes, I'm still tired. Tired I can deal with, sick I can't. I am the biggest whimp when it comes to being sick. I was telling a friend the other day I'd rather get myself bruised up in karate, break an arm, whatever, anything is better than being sick.
So the hope is that it's a girl. Elizabeth has been begging for years now for a sister :)
There still is, of course, the underlying fear of having another child with CF but we'll deal with that if and when we have to. Surprisingly I haven't been as worked up about it this time as I was when I was pregnant with Seth. I just hope all is well and that this one has escaped the disease. We won't know until he/she is born.
For now I'm just going to enjoy being able to get up and move around without feeling like I'm going to hurl any minute. I haven't yet, I absolutley refuse to throw up. I've come close to giving in but with my first two pregnancies, the one we lost and Nate, I did enough throwing up to last several lifetimes. So I will use every mental effort and trick I know to keep from doing it!!
And with feeling better I think now I can finally start feeling excited about this new little life I'm carrying around :)